Finally, a working stove

Saturday. Before things went downhill.

Saturday. Before things went downhill. I was determined this weekend would be focused on Stanley, since it could be the last we have as a family of three! Saturday was good, we went out for lunch, and made our own pizzas for dinner (Stanley particularly enjoyed eating the cheese!). Saturday night, I had the most horrific toothache (not a lot that can be done whilst pregnant), and I spent most of the night awake. Sunday morning, we had planned to take Stanley to the cinema, and despite best persuasions from hubby (reassuring me that we don't need to go!), I was determined that we would – for Stanley! I somehow managed to pull through, and Stanley has the best of timings *all goes quiet*… he shouts: "don't go to sleep mummy… wake up… it's not night time"! In the afternoon, the pain got worse, and I end up at out-of-hours GP and given co-codamol (I'm super wary of taking anything whilst pregnant). Pain relief did no good and I had another night with no sleep. Emergency trip to dentist on Monday resulted in draining an abscess with no anaesthetic (my worst nightmare, as even the thought of going to a dentist sends me into a panic). The pain got worse again, and I had another night with little sleep. Thankfully today, the pain has eased off a little – though the slightest touch is agony (I hope this starts to fade). If nothing else, I am telling myself that if I can cope with this pain for three days, then giving birth is going to be a breeze! To make things worse, I’ve been trying to force myself to eat, particularly since having #gestationaldiabetes. But, this has been tough…I can barely manage anything and so I’m feeling super guilty. Stanley has been great though, I’ve had lots of kisses and cuddles ❤ And… #phdlife? Today was supposed to be my last supervision, before the little one arrives, but of course – there was no way I was making it to uni. It also turned out that both supervisors were also unwell, and therefore not wanting to come near me(!), and so, at least I didn't feel so guilty for having to cancel in the end! #gdukmums #toothache #rootcanal #abscess #pregnancyproblems #37weekspregnant #phdmama #phdmom #phdmum #pregnancylife

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Married for 44 years, and feeling super Mum guilt 

Mum & Dad ❤ married today for 44 years, as well as being my mums birthday. Whilst it has been a lovely day spent with family, it hasn't been such a lovely day for the little man. He has done so much today and it has been a real struggle for him, especially adding tiredness to the equation. He does so well, and then its days like today that leave me feeling guilty. Guilty because I know we should be consistent. Guilty because I know we need to stick to his routines as much as possible. I should be able to make sure he has a nap during the day, surely? I shouldn't expect him to be able to cope with going out. I should be able to provide him with the quiet environment that I know he likes. I shouldn't force him to work around everybody else. I should be stronger and focus on Stanley's needs. I know what he needs, but sometimes it's hard. Especially right now. Being #37weekspregnant, I can't do all of the things I usually do for him. These past two days have been tough – I've been getting pains, and have barely managed to do anything – I think this little lady is ready to make an appearance! To end the day? I'm left with super mummy guilt, because out of the 101 things we took with us to nana's today, the one thing I forget to bring home is the one teddy that Stanley wants… #mumguilt #guiltymom #parenting #toddlerlife #autismawareness #asd #autismjourney #autismmum #autismparent #autistic #autistictoddler #routines #autismjourney #autismlife #ilovesomeonewithautism #phddmum #phdmama #phdmom #phdproblems #anniversary #weddinganniversary #birthday #pregnancy #pregnancylife #pregnancyproblems #pregnancyjourney

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Mum’s low carb / low sugar Birthday cake

A few of my favourite (vintage) childhood books

I am so thankful that my mum (despite my dad’s best efforts at persuading her to “declutter”) kept so much from my childhood, and not just my childhood, but from my sister’s too, who are 10+ years older. Here, is just a small collection, of my favourite books that she kept – that are now getting some love all over again. It is amazing to watch Stanley with these books, enjoying them, and loving them, just as much as I did as a child. These are probably his (and my!) favourites…

Huff the Hedgehog by Ruth Ainsworth and Ronald Ridout (first published in 1966 and reprinted in the 70’s). As soon as mum dug this one out, it brought back so many memories from childhood!

The Three Little Pigs published by Chatto and Windus in 1977, and this book is fab because it is A Peepshow Book, that magically folds out 360 degrees!

The Caught Bird, written and illustrated by Christopher McKimmie (1977), and I particularly love the illustration of this one.

Finally, our collection of Ladybird Books (mum has kept many of these!), published in the 60’s and 70’s. The three pictured below are Stanley’s favourites; Goldilocks and the Three BearsThe Three Little Pigs, and Chicken Licken. Chicken Licken, by far, has to be my favourite, and a story that I always remember from childhood!

37 week update, and my Dad’s first scan

Morning spent at hospital for my #37week scan and clinic. This morning was special, because it was my dad's first time at a scan, and not something we thought he would have the opportunity to do ❤ Though, by the look on his face he was just as happy about all the waiting around as I was! Outcome from today? No change, other than needing some iron. So, no plans for induction just yet – I'm back in 2 weeks for another scan, plus #diabetic clinic. Babies growth has slowed down a little, but they didn't seem too concerned. Diabetic team we're happy with my readings, and so I've managed to dodge insulin once again! Though, they did warn me that I could see them suddenly start to get high over the next couple of weeks, in which case I will likely have a little insulin. I'm also guessing there is a likelihood I may not make it to #39weeks, since Stanley arrived at #38weeks! With Stanley, my waters happened to break as I was getting ready to go to uni to meet with my #phd supervisors one final time before heading off on leave! I have #supervision planned for next week… now, that would be too much of a coincidence! #phdlife #phdchat #phdproblems #phdstudent #phdmum #phdmama #phdmom #37weeks #37weekspregnant #gdukmums #gestationaldiabetes #diabetesinpregnancy #pregnancy #pregnancyproblems #pregnancylife

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Long overdue catch up with a friend